on borrowed tech

It's Wednesday morning and the week already feels long. I don't know why. It's a beautiful day and Ja's just back from Calgary. I'm sitting here eating a nice Quebec cheese called Frere Jacques on brown melba toast. Sounds healthy! I just ate a doughnut before that. We all just got back from the ultrasound appointment and I guess if you are reading this blog - you'll be the first to know the news. So apparantly, by anatomy I'm closer to 20 weeks along and that makes sense as I've been feeling the baby kick for a week or two now. Seeing the baby move around makes me understand all this kicking. This little babe is running in my belly! Very active, wiggler...it'll teach him a lesson when these is less room. Yes, ladies and gentlemen...we are having a boy. It's with slight initial sadness that I say this. I think the weeks of wishing with CJ that it would be another girl has finally been confirmed to be false. The sadness I think comes with the realization that I will be getting rid of all her little pink onesies and sleepers, that the coming months will bring big changes, and it makes the reality of actually having the baby more real. We will probably be a family of 4, so it's also the last of baby girls. So for this morning, I'm in a slight daze about having a boy. Worried again about not knowing what to do and needing to start all over again too. I know the joy will come soon so at the same time I am thankful for the healthy blessing...but stilll.....a boy. Wow. I've already told Ja's it's all his fault. Of course, being very sensible, he says that it's only 1/2 his fault.